I’ve been really picking at heavy wounds this week in my life. Although I believe completely in the forgiveness of others, just as Jesus has forgiven us for the wrong we have done; when I see things that have never been reconciled and where sins have been done against another, and so many have been deceived; I long for reconciliation. I am left crying out to God over these things done ages ago. I don’t know how to breathe without His help. My throat is left feeling dry & I tend to fight hyperventilation (which I do when overly stressed with emotion). Thankfully as a secondary help, my husband is extremely sweet to me during these times, which makes it easier by cute things he says or by trying to dance with me (I’m a sucker for dancing) and gives me kisses and gentle words. With God’s word especially, I start to feel a bit better. Just pray for me. Thanks.
This anchor scarf by the way was sent to me by Skip N’ Whistle (they had me choose a decal design & the color. So awesome. Thank you). They make shirts, sweatshirts, bags, scarves, and tank tops. This scarf is so comfortable and warm and very soft. I have been wearing it regularly in my own home because I just like how it feels! I thought it would go perfectly with the Modcloth sailor top (which I have been living out of too because it is so cozy).
Rachel mentioned that now that I have blonde hair I could do Sailor Moon hair, so I thought “Why not?” In case you’re wondering how I got my hair like this (and if you are new to my blog, yes, that is all my real hair), I literally used 3 bobby pins in each “odango” (I just twisted my hair into a small bun and bobby pinned taking a small section of the hair that hangs and pinned under the bun right near where the strip of hair comes out on each side of the strip of hair coming out pointing up. Then I pinned one going sideways to connect the two pins . . that’s it). I used to do it differently when I was younger (would put my hair in a knot, no bobby pins, but it didn’t look authentic like this one & fell out easily).
Although I used to have a great obsession with Sailor Moon, I like being me now. Sure I can pull off looking like her and yeah, I did marry early on and had two kids and love seeking justice, but it isn’t because of Sailor Moon, but because of my love for Jesus. I believe He has blessed me quite a bit, though if I were not given these gifts, I would still be blessed, for life in general is an amazing blessing. This verse is pretty much an explanation as to why we named our second son Micah. “He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?” – Micah 6:8 [ESV]. I really want to live it out! I’d rather be a real person & a child of God, than a super hero that was created fictionally ANY day.