So many times I have seen God answer my prayers. It reminds me that He is working. He is listening. Sometimes He says, “no!” to my prayers, and instead of complaining about it, I try to see the positive about how it was selfish or how we need to look to God through things that do happen that are not easy to take (like a death in a family or something). Instead of blaming Him for things, I find myself often rejoicing or being at peace. Other times I have been praying the same prayers for certain people for many years and maybe He will answer them in the future as well. It is good to pray. It is really wonderful to also LISTEN to God. We need to not just talk and think we deserve to get our way. We forget that there are so many things God has done and we need to listen to and obey! He knocks on my heart and reminds me of all the times I have shrugged Him off. . .but I need to listen more and obey. At the same time I need to build a better relationship with Him as well. It is not the easiest thing to do, and is a challenge. I’ve been seeking a better prayer life for a couple years and I still slack, but I have grown as well. I am more and more surprised at myself, and am thankful that I am able to grow.
Yep, another Spiritual post. Every time I make one, I see less followers. Please don’t go away. You don’t have to read this. If you are curious and want to put in your two cents, that’s cool to me!
I did food shopping at 7AM and did a short photoshoot at a lake beforehand (since the store opens at 7 and it was 6:30). While I was looking out at the lake and listening to the geese (and watching them poop everywhere), I saw the sun right in front of me. I just was thinking, “Wow, God, this is beauitful! You are glorious!” I wanted to worship Him on the spot, but I was trying to rush to get to the store and back home to help my husband with the boys.
[photo taken by me. . the sun was really bright in this moment!]
I started to really want alone time with God. My time was being cut short. I wake up very early (habitually since I was 7). Unfortunately so do my boys (at this point in time). We’re all up between 5-6AM. I have desired to sit down and read my Bible alone and pray for at least a half an hour. To me it is really important to start my day that way. Why? To breathe in His word for guidance and then have it on my mind, keeps me less frustrated, more patient, and really it makes me feel like a better person. On top of that it is odd how often things I read can come up in a conversation or an issue that perhaps a friend is going through. I feel at peace even when something comes in to shake me and make me angry. It is a feeling that is hard to describe, when the Holy Spirit flows, but it is so real and dynamic. For now though I tend to either read a chapter or portion of a chapter and dwell on it while I am getting Rob’s lunch made, or doing something else. A lot of the time lately I read the Bible to my boys and ask them questions, when really I am just asking them to myself, since they don’t really know much about it at all. I want to pray more and more than just in my head to God.
I read an amazing book the other day about a woman who was in hiding during the Rwanda, Africa genocide in 1994. She was in a bathroom for 3 months with 5-7 women (two were added after a month). She prayed and prayed and prayed to Jesus since they couldn’t make a sound unless the man hiding them would give them food or tell them news. Her story really was incredibly inspiring. The book is called Left To Tell. This woman saw her prayers answered so many times and she also was incredibly in tuned with God even though there were all those women there cramped with her. She was focused. I want that. I want time to focus and talk to Jesus one on one. I don’t think I do it enough.
Oddly enough, as simple as it might sound, when I walked out of the store this morning, I saw the sun was nowhere to be found. It was getting dismal looking. I was a little down about that and prayed that God would allow the sun to shine down on me and to come out of my way of living, as I try to be His servant. The sun literally followed me as I drove in that instant. As soon as I got home, it went away (but after a few hours came out shining again). I started to cry a little while I was praying a few other things that were on my heart and mind. I really enjoyed it. I couldn’t control it and I don’t even remember why it happened other than the emotions of feeling the Holy Spirit within me.
And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. -Ephesians 6:18
I want to pray for you. How are you in need of prayer??